i put a big smile on my face

no one knows what im thinking ..
well yeahs ..
i do love to keep it to myself ..
i think deep about everything ..
but once im with others ..
i just put a big smile on my face
and pretend nothing had happen
and people wouldnt know how much i hurt
no one will know ..

hypocrite?
yeahs .. i am .
so what ??
i hate it when people feel sorry for me..
i hate it when people stare ..
thats why i just
put a big smile on my face ..