Gosh. macam baru je semalam bertunang. And a day before couple.
We've been together since 2006.
And dah nak setahun bertunang.
I always say that i tak nak bertunang lama.
Setahun. Thats a long way to go
Ramai cakap "ala.setahun. pejam celik pejam celik. dah setahun"
Yes.U R DAMN RIGHT
tapi dugaan nye
Hanya Allah yang tahu.
How many times i cried
How many times i nak END ALL OF THIS
Stop it right there
before things getting worst
i have this one perangai that
selalu cakap "i WONT GET MY HAPPY ENDING"
and how many times i asked my best friend
"am i doing the right decision?"
"will i be happy?"
"will this be forever?"
Dalam masa setahun. So much up and down!
And when i feel like " Dah la. Dah tak larat. better stop here than menyesal nanti"
And i sit quietly
and say to myself
"Where can i find a guy who love me soo much that can handle my ego. his ego is sky high but mine! planet pluto !! "
"who can actually handle my temper. and he been doing so for this past 4 years plus"
"where can i find a man who love me for me. and be there for me. tadahkan telingan when i PMS. let me be when im angry. keep quiet coz he know if he say anything when im mad, its just make the problem worst"
"WHERE CAN I FIND SUCH A MAN"
YES. Dia ada kelemahan die. HE IS NOT ROMANTIC!
YES. Dia ada kelemahan dia. He is NOT RICH.
YES. DIa ada kelemahan dia. He cant give me a CHANEL FLAP BAG.
I need someone that can give me all of his LOVE.
Thats all i ask for.
And yes. He's working hard to give me everything that i want.
And yes. Everytime dia dapat gaji. I will only ask him to belanja me makan.
I did not ask for a present.
bila merajuk or angry. i just want him to hold me
I need him to be there with me. All the time. I wanted his attention all the time. I want him to love me. All the time
Then i fikir. why should i ask "if he the one?" "can he make me happy?"
FIRST and FOREMOST THAT I WOULD LIKE TO WEAR ON MY WEDDING DAY IS
Gelang kaki pontianak harum sundal malam nie.
Fall in love with the gelang waktu tengok movie tu. terus head over heels and merengek to my mum nak nak nak!! hahahaha .. then jumpa yang bukan original nye kat Semua House. My mum tak nak coz dia nak original and memang antique nyer. so sesi mencari berjalan. dah ada ke? dah jumpa ke? wait and see ;)
Inai yang berukir.
Kan last year keluar fatwa yang x boleh pakai inai nie semua kan. and i fight with my mum. coz i cakap yang fatwa tu keluarkan is actually mana yang buat macam tattoo. siapa tak pernah buat inai nie macam tattoo dulu? i selalu. ukir sendiri lukis sendiri. nak kawin sebab nak sangat pakai inai macam nie. lawa rasa. and Pakistani pun semua pakai inai macam nie. sebab ada keturunan. kita buat la. haha~~
owhs. my pakistani friend tanye i, time tunang napa tak pakai inai kat tangan. i terkejut coz dia cakap adat pakistan time tunang pun berinai tau! wow. Atuk tak ada so x tau la kan. if dia ada mesti macam2 dia buat. haha~
A Black Wedding Gown
To tell the truth. i hate white. sebab i dont think i look good in white. i suka HITAM. untuk i hitam tu menawan. and yes bagi illusion kurus tu! hahahaha .. So dapat ke saya pakai Black Wedding Dress? We wait and see la :D
A PRINCESS CUT DIAMOND WEDDING RING
Fall in love with princess cut time i nampak kat Gold Heart Mid Valley.
Owhs. I was head over heels. cantiknya. For me dia macam rare! Hahahaha. So dah cakap kat Comet "i would like that diamond to be my wedding ring" boleh pengsan dia tengok harga. 0.7carat is RM 18,000 with plain ring. YES! RM 18,000! tu harga i tengok like 3 years back! now tak tahu la. mau lagi mahal kot kan? hahahaha. so dapat ke princess cut diamond nie? hmmm ....
Last but not least
A CHRISTIAN LOUBOUTIN BLACK PUMP
owhs. itu adalah wedding dream shoes! tak payah bagi berkilau-kilau. saya nak Louboutin jer. menarik tertarik ko memang the bomb! haha .. Dapat ke? Kita tunggu dan lihat la kan. hmmph
So yes. itu la all i can say on my dream wedding.
Eh mana pasal pelamin? pasal doorgift? pasal venue? pasal theme.
I dont care bout that.
Nak pelamin I kayu ke, zaman batu ke. underwater world ke. fairy tales ke.
I x kesah! hahahaha.
Make up artist xnak ke saidatulnisa ke ? Tiar Zainal ke?
Owhs. I amik orang biasa je. ;) kak mimie yang make up time tunang jer. for reception sebab i dapat from LRKL so i amik E'sham. DIa make up elyana time kat majlis bertandang and i love the magic dia buat. XD
I'm so lucky that I am your BlackBerry! You hold me with both hands gently as you could be. You ensure that I am always with you. If I fall you are afraid of my injury. I always have your undivided attention and you get upset if others disturb our time together. You can never forget me in a taxi and you won't let me go unlike my old friends Nokia, Sony and Sammy that you would proudly just hand over. When you eat, I'm beside you. When you are on the toilet, I'm with you. When you sleep my head is by your pillow. When I scream you rush and pick me up like an egg. When I feel low, you make every effort to recharge my battery. When I am hungry, you fill me with airtime. You buy me all sorts of clothes to cover my precious skin. And if I make u feel like a cowboy you strap me to your waist or jeans. Every month you ensure that you set aside the money, to buy me bundles "of love". You upgraded me from my friends Nokia, Sony and Sammy to a Curve, Bold and Torch. You rush home from work and spend quality time with me... not really bothered to make a conversations with those at home. You can sit up with me for hours and smile at me, yet I have no humanly emotions. Sometimes I make you laugh that people think you are mad. I watch your wife/hubby or your bf/gf who envy our time together.
I appeal to you!!! Your life is wasted because of me. Take some time, leave me aside and sort out issues that are important to you because I may love you as much as you do love me but I am just a BlackBerry... nothing more!!!
Your BlackBerry xxx Sent via BlackBerry from Maxis