Check-Up

Woke up early to anta afie for tuition ..

then balik relex2 kejap .. mandi2 .. and straight pick up 2 of my staff for their medical check-up .. my mum keep bugging me to do mine too .. so i need to do one ..

sampai jer Clinic tuhs .. i said to the nurse that i pun nak buat full medical checkup .. to check for everything *cancer etc* .. and i know what will happen to me .. amik darah semua kan .. im ready .. but .. i know akan ada side effect .. but hoping for the best ..

so .. dah tunggu tuh.. dapat jumpa doctor .. bila cakap nak buat full medical check up .. dia dah pelik .. "why ? " .. i said just for pre-caution ..

So .. lepas di interview .. dia pun amik needle and so on needed .. die ikat tangan kiri i dulu .. then x jumpa cari urat .. dia kuarkan .. ikat kanan pulak .. still x jumpa ..

lama gak dia duk tepuk2 suh urat kuar *its either urat tuhs takot or tangan ku sememangnya banyak lemak :P * .. so .. dia amik kapas basah tu and sapu2 .. just in case kalau dapat jumpa .. and baca "Bismillah" .. i thought dia dah nak masukkan jarum .. so pandang lain .. but tak rasa ape kan .. then tgk dia duk cari agi urat i .. i dah confiuss .. i pun tengok la .. memang tak nampak .. pelik .. susah kot nak cari situ .. hehehe ..

So .. kali kedua dia sebut "Bismillah" .. i pandang arah lain .. dia masukkan jarum .. memang rasa .. and amik darah .. but surprisingly sangat la lama .. so i know .. mesti tetiba tak jumpa urat so dia duk cari2 lagi kan walaupun dah masukkan jarum ..

So bila dia dah amik .. i can rasa lama gila nak penuhkan satu injection tuhs .. i see what he was doing .. tengok jer darah masuk .. relex jer .. bila dia dah tarik jarum tuh .. senyum je .. dia kuarkan getah semua .. "dusshhh " it hit me .. kebas satu badan ..

as usual .. jenis tak nak tunjuk lemah .. *tahan* .. then dia suruh pegang kapas basah tuhs kan .. time tuhs he look at me .. muka dia dah pelik .. at the same time i had to mengeluh .. to gain balik kekuatan .. tapi Doc dah perhati je la kan .. and he ask me "are u ok?" .. i said "yup" .. dia pandang .. dia tanya ag "rasa apa?? " i said .. ermm .. rasa kebas naik ke kepala .. dia senyum .. "Rasa nak pitam ke? " .. i was like " ehh .. tak .. ermmm .. ye kot " then die senyum .. he said " awak pucat .. gi baring "

i was devastated .. i HATE IT .. i HATE when people saw how vulnerable i am .. so terpaksa baring .. i know this will happen.. but a part of me tak nak it to be this way ..

i remember back in 2002 .. doctor cakap i nie jenis kekurangan darah .. dia suruh eat all the food yang boleh tingkat kan darah i .. bila tanya my dad .. dia cakap makan hati .. i go "uwekkkk" .. so i tak bitau i kurang darah .. just keep it to myself .. heehehee .. so bila kene amik darah .. itu la apa i rasa .. i dont know .. nie kali ketiga .. and tiga-tiga kali jadi macam nie .. hehehehehhe

so lepas dah setel and dah boleh bangun .. i look at the doctor and said im ok .. dia senyum "betul??" .. "yup .. thank doc .. mmg dah expect jadi mcm nie" .. die senyum jer :) .. so lepas tuhs nurse suruh amik specimen air kencing ..

arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ..

BODY KU in SHOCK !! i cant fill it .. SIKIT GILA .. siap nurse bagi minum air .. still cannot .. hahahahah .. saiko OKE !!!!!!!! erghhh .. pastu pandai2 la i settle benda tu :P hahahahahah

ok .. so dah setel tuhs .. lengan ku bengkak sampai ke petang .. kene gelak ngan staff .. derang tak sampai 30sec dlm bilik doc .. aku nak 5minit .. hahahahahha .. pastu derang relex je .. aku sampai lengan bengkak .. shaits :p

so .. dah settle semua .. time late lunch with comet .. ma call .. dia cakap she's really not feeling well so nak gi clinic ... rush balik .. sampai rumah .. dia xnak pegi clinic coz Dr yang selalu dia jumpa tak da .. paksa dia pegi SMC .. ajak SJMC dia x suke SJMC .. coz 2x dia gi sana siap operation pun not OK ..

So .. sampai SMC .. time Dr check her .. i yang explain .. what happen .. since when .. ubat apa dia amik .. bawak ubat .. tunjuk blood test sme .. and her history with operation and all .. Dr pandang pun konfius kot .. tak tau sapa patient and sapa bukan :p

i said maybe sebab ubat or because of telinga dia .. but my mum said because of her blood .. so kene buat medical checkup again .. her blood now OK .. so .. memang it goes to her telinga balik .. dia pernah buat operation gegendang telinga 3 years back ..

what happen .. dia rasa tak stabil .. drive tak stable .. walk tak stable .. even dia rasa cam dalam khayalan .. when she said that i know it will absolutely be her ear la .. that the symptoms 3 years back .. tapi dia x caya .. she said she can hear well .. ok .. so now dah confirm .. doc bagi ject and med .. in 5 days tak OK .. kene jumpa balik our specialist .. if in 2 days getting worst .. we need to head back to specialist ASAP ..

hope everything ok .. maybe dia ada rasa trauma time kene ragut pecah cermin kot .. this is when i feel like killing that stupid GUY !! my mum cant even work .. today first time in her life kul 9pagi dia kat rumah ag .. dia bangun kul 8.45am .. selama nie kul 5am dia dah bangun .. 5.30am mandi .. 6.30 dia dah sampai Shell .. see the different ..

well .. hope everything goes well ..

Next week is my MBA final exam .. and next two weeks will be another RRE that i withdraw last weeks ..

Wish us luck ..